An Anthropology Project

Jealousy at 36

My Automotive teacher constantly compares me to his wife. Then says that we can’t have any kind of personal relationship whatsoever because that would upset her….. It seems too late for that.

I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don’t mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don’t mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding.

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Anaïs Nin  (via lawsofmodernman)

Feels good to know I’m not the only one who feels this way.